My photos are pretty bad lately. This doesn’t really bother me at all, for some reason. That is just where I am at the moment. They are not great, I know it, and I am choosing other parts of my life to focus on right now instead of photography. Spring is the only thing can reform the state I am in, so I am going to embrace mediocrity until it gets here. In 22 days.
I went through the two weeks of looking for hearts to photograph, and some days, I made an attempt but didn’t like the result. Sometimes I took photos of three or four hearts through the course of a day. Often it was my kids asking if I had my photo for the day yet and pointing out a heart to me. Anyway, at this point I realize I am just not cut out to look for such a specific thing. Here are just a few more hearts, the least terrible of the “cutting room floor” photos from this little project. And I had to share the potato chip heart, somewhere. I took several photos of it, and then Adam and I waited to see if something magical would happen when I ate it. Nothing.
I made it until Valentine’s Day and then I was totally over the hearts. I am going to do a separate post about that, and include many heart photos that I didn’t use for my 365. So now, back to the day to day, trying to mix it up a bit, taking photos of whatever. We had so much sickness in our house over the last week, including one day when I was so sick I could barely physically lift up my camera (stomach flu). We are past all of that and still pushing along. These are not the days where I dump my cards into Lightroom and have so many AMAZING! photos I don’t know how to pick one. I am cruising along feeling like surely something I shot will work, and it has been working. I may start trying harder, or trying different things soon. Hard to say.
This was a week where, if not for the 365, I would not be picking up my camera(s). At all. And the hearts thing is hard. Lots of food hearts, and two featuring pepperoni? Oh my. Things are hard right now, not fun, not happy, and I am honestly not really feeling like I want to photographically preserve memories of this. I read that next week, crocuses will start to bloom, maybe. I think that if we can get to the blooming flowers point again, we are going to be ok.
Not such a good week. I feel like perhaps I said that last week, but what did I know then? Really not my favorite week. Some great things happened, like a trip to Ikea with my amazing (really amazing) friend Jill. And I got very excited about starting a heart project for the month of February, inspired by something photographer Heather Lazark posted on Clickin Moms. Kind of challenging. I have not been able to find hearts in the world or out in the wild so much, but maybe I can capture a few of those by the end of the month. I would especially love to see hearts within light, or people, or in nature. Bad things this week include sickness, too many snow days, kid stuff, and the death of a close friend. And more. Weeks like this really make it hard to keep picking up your camera, which is very much required when you are doing this 365 thing. Well, I don’t know. Onward, I guess.